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"I'm Crying Now"
The doctor said it would allow me to finish college.
The doctor said, "Ten minutes and you can go on with your life."
The doctor said, "No one will ever know."
The doctor said, "You'll forget about it once it's over."
The doctor said it wouldn't hurt. He was wrong.
The doctor smiled.
The doctor thought he was doing me a favor,
But he didn't know at all.
It was over.
I tried to forget that I was ever pregnant.
I isolated myself from my family and my friends.
I hated men and I hated myself.
I became hard on the outside to protect myself.
I stopped feeling so I wouldn't hurt.
My heart became hard as stone.
I gained a hundred pounds.
I did not trust doctors.
I hurt but did not cry.
The years passed by.
I didn't know why I
finally cried
for my
baby.
It
was the
one and only
child I ever conceived
a mere twelve weeks at best
who is eternally laid to rest.
My arms ache to hold my child to my breast.
My tears flow like rivers in the Spring after the thaw.
My child has no grave marker - and no grave to rest his soul.
My heart has no place to go to grieve - and the tears run freely now.
Karen Keitzman, Founder of FORMER WOMEN OF CHOICE
Who had an abortion in 1969 at 12-13 weeks
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